Wide Awake For Days

Close your eyes to block out the pain
and I'm
seeing red again.
Curl up into yourself and hope it passes quickly
but it won't pass quickly
IT WON'T PASS QUICKLY!
Stagger to your feet, little girl,
stumble and stagger
and fall once again
before pulling yourself to your feet
How can I face you?
HOW CAN I FACE YOU?
I'm just a girl.
Wipe off the make up.
Take off the leathers
Pull off the disguises
I'm just a little girl.
Whimpering, alone.
Simpering little girl.
But I'm not a coward.
And I won't back down.
I don't care if you aren't on my side.
I don't care if you're 20 years away.
I DON'T CARE.
If I have to fight you fuckers,
these little thoughts in my head
one by one by one
And pluck them off
Like the fleas on a dog,
I'll do it.
I'm not that strong.
And I'm not that knowledgeable.
I'm not well liked.
And I'm not pretty.
But I am determined.
And I am insane.
And I know how to use
What I've got
To get what I want.
And what I want
Is to do the best
With what I've got.
I can do this.
You wanna make a bet?
Place it on me, motherfucker.
Because I stumble.
And I fall.
But I come back with a vengence.
And I am
One.
Motherfuckin.
Pissed.
Off.
Bitch.